Waves, more waves of pain subsist
Persistent suffering in gloomy mist
Why then, O God, worthy, I thought
Instead of peace, in fear I rot
No where to go, no where to hide
I can’t explain this great divide
Curse Satan’s grip, I cannot sleep
Staring at the ceiling my darkness creeps
Blissfully happy, or so it seemed
So filled with futures, filled with dreams
My God had blessed me, all fun, no cares
I didn’t push it, I didn’t care
But then it happened, a silent pause
Unknown worries, the deadly cause
And climbed the hill, to work I went
Looked left and right, death reached and bent
Those family’s lives, their loved one laid
Despite their tears, they’re all afraid
So, who is next, Lord, what do I say
To all those faces, how to convey
I’m too affected, depressed and frantic
Anxiety stricken, tired and panicked
Please help me, Lord, to do my best
Trials and temptations, put to the test
How to distinguish, how to discern
Long to be closer, longing to yearn
Please show me the lesson I’ll never forget
I’m trying to be humble, not cast in regret
I cling to your coattails, where else would I go
Please show me the path, Lord, soften the blow
The trees with their thick leaves, I just cannot see
I beg that there’s guidance from You, is my plea
You see, I am rotten, from inside and out
Drowning in worry, no trust that I’ve got
It isn’t Your fault, see, I’m withered and worn
The sins of despair have me shattered and torn
And just when I thought, saw a glimmering light
I was pulled and was dragged back to shivering fright
So, once again, praying, Lord, there must be relief
I need to be rested in You, in belief
That You are the Christ, You care about me
And that’s why You came, to hang on that tree
To take away burden, to lighten my load
Forgiving my sin and paving my road
To Your glory kingdom, forever an heir
You took away pain, what I couldn’t bear
So gentle and lowly, You showed me the way
The way to the truth in perfect display
I’m cold and I’m hot, Lord, with plentiful needs
I’m hungry, I hunger, no faith left to feed
And from my abyss, to Your safety I turn
To Your loving arms, Lord, with singes and burns
So, down to my knees, in reverence I come
To bring praise and glory to the Heavenly One
And in all my sufferings, what have I most learned
The world is so empty, it’s to You that I turn